Third time lucky?

Strange things have been happening to me lately… things I am not used to. Not necessarily bad things, just simply strange…

I have been having a lot on my mind.

First of all, I signed a contract with WB office in Sarajevo to work while a mission from Washington is here on a self-governance and utility financing study, which will be done as project prep. The work is fun, dynamic, fast paced, challenging and I haven’t been bored for 1 minute since I started to work.

The contract though, is finishing soon and I will be left with my travelling money, which I earned for my Singapore trip, but still no job to go to.

Deep down, I am not that adventurous (or crazy as my parents would call it) type and I’m not really prepared to pack my bags and take off with nothing secure (in economic terms), waiting for me. After all, you cannot feed yourself from love and air (I wish I could).

I applied for several jobs and am waiting for replies but after applying for a traineeship through AIESEC I got disappointed again and again. I applied three times and got three rejections.

Is there point in applying further? How persistent to I have to be in order to get an internship I have been so often selling to various students from Bosnia for many many years.

That is the irony…

I finally get an opportunity to apply for one myself, wait until I graduate, until I get some work experience (which I thought would get me more chances of applying for something good) and get 3 rejections in a row.

In fact, maybe it is for the best. I believe all things happen for a reason. But then again, I had it all mapped inside of my mind and now my thoughts are tumbling down and I’m left searching for new options…

The worse things though, are the various temptations I am faced with every day. Temptations in terms of job offers, with fantastic companies and organisations, which would be like a catapult for my professional future…

I don’t want to sacrifice anything but get everything, is that possible at all?

… as I said, a lot on my mind…

I suppose this weekend trip to the seas side will do me some good. Maybe the fresh air clears my thoughts.

As a kid watching W. Disney films was one of my favorite hobbies. Watching the prince on a white horse, swiftly ride off into the sunset with his princess and living happily ever after was my favorite moment.

But, I was never the sucker kid who believed in that stuff. I was far more realistic for my age, thinking I’d probably get a horse without the prince and ride it into the sunset…

I had never believed in love at first sight, long distance relationships or mythological creatures either.

As I grew older, I learned not to trust men, weather forecasts and old women telling me what to wear.

I also never thought that I, of all the people in the world would be willing to have a long distance relationship and eventually to move half way across the world to be with someone I care about (no horse included - thank godness).

Looks like times are changing… for the better. And I couldn’t be happier.

I just hope unicorns and UFOs won’t be flying around soon.

I am very superstitious, and since this year is the year of the Pig (Chinese lunar calendar) I was told it was one of the lucky ones. I was born in the year of the Pig and those people are considered to be fortunate. I am willing to wait and see if these predictions are true.

So far so good… :)

In the mean time, I will trash the horoscopes and search for my fate online with a little help of airline ticketing and job searching websites.
Keep your fingers crossed for me.