Third time lucky?

Strange things have been happening to me lately… things I am not used to. Not necessarily bad things, just simply strange…

I have been having a lot on my mind.

First of all, I signed a contract with WB office in Sarajevo to work while a mission from Washington is here on a self-governance and utility financing study, which will be done as project prep. The work is fun, dynamic, fast paced, challenging and I haven’t been bored for 1 minute since I started to work.

The contract though, is finishing soon and I will be left with my travelling money, which I earned for my Singapore trip, but still no job to go to.

Deep down, I am not that adventurous (or crazy as my parents would call it) type and I’m not really prepared to pack my bags and take off with nothing secure (in economic terms), waiting for me. After all, you cannot feed yourself from love and air (I wish I could).

I applied for several jobs and am waiting for replies but after applying for a traineeship through AIESEC I got disappointed again and again. I applied three times and got three rejections.

Is there point in applying further? How persistent to I have to be in order to get an internship I have been so often selling to various students from Bosnia for many many years.

That is the irony…

I finally get an opportunity to apply for one myself, wait until I graduate, until I get some work experience (which I thought would get me more chances of applying for something good) and get 3 rejections in a row.

In fact, maybe it is for the best. I believe all things happen for a reason. But then again, I had it all mapped inside of my mind and now my thoughts are tumbling down and I’m left searching for new options…

The worse things though, are the various temptations I am faced with every day. Temptations in terms of job offers, with fantastic companies and organisations, which would be like a catapult for my professional future…

I don’t want to sacrifice anything but get everything, is that possible at all?

… as I said, a lot on my mind…

I suppose this weekend trip to the seas side will do me some good. Maybe the fresh air clears my thoughts.